hello & assalamualaikum. It has been a while since I last updated my blog, but hey, see any difference? Hehe yes, a new layout, background, basically I edited every single thing! Just the way I like it..

We are currently heading to the end of August & I honestly felt the breeze. Well, don't you? Everything happens so quickly, I'm still in the month of February, lol. Talking about that, I have finally entered college, yay? Yay.

Story behind the offer letter;

At first, I had never even heard of Kolej Yayasan UEM. KYUEM? Where is that? Is that a university? why is it called college? The first time I heard of it was when my mother went to their open day last year, when I just finished my SPM trials. Umi went there with Nayli, on a saturday. basically i think she knows about this place because her friend's daughter went there, and recommended the place to her. During that time, at school, I already have access to my smartphone, but it is actually illegal to bring to school but hey, it's almost the end of high school, I need to take some pictures????!!! Thankfully the teachers understand but we had to keep it low-key. So back to the story, after going to ky's open day, she sent me the pictures that she took while they were there. Ohmyyyyy. I instantly fell inlavvvvv with the buildings, the surroundings.(( Actually what attracted me was their hostel, so nice!) Then she told me that ky has a very good reputation as it is the best A-Levels college in Malaysia & most of the big companies send their scholars there, such as Maybank, Yayasan Khazanah, Bank Negara, PNB, YTN, JPA, Petronas, Shell..... and anything else that offers scholarships. Lol.

The tour around the college was led by the college's students themselves & my mother kept telling me about them, like "They have a very good communication skills", "They are very nice & very good", "We were led by 2 students, one was a straight A+ student and another one is a straight A student!" and I pun dengar my mother cerita about that place..... TO make it short, my parents really like that place. (Mind you, when my mother told me about the students there, I was still in the middle of taking my SPM AND THAT MADE ME BOOST MY SPIRIT TO STUDY MORE.)

A short intro about kyuem;

yadayadayada, SPM finished, I got my results, Alhamdulillah. Now, where should I study next? During the 7 months break that I had after SPM before entering college, I struggle myself on making decisions on what course should I take in college? Should I take foundation, or should I go for A levels? Definitely diploma is not in my list as I don't want to study that long( 3 years) plus, diplomas are for those who are really sure on what they wanna be in the future *this was based on my research on the pros and cons of every programme* and it became more difficult to make a decision when I got the JPA- MARA scholarship. Yes. Alhamdulillah, I got the scholarship but the scholarship only pays for my education in Malaysia- engineering course.. (4 years, 1 year of foundation and 3 years of degree in University Technology Petronas) When I got this scholarship, I was honestly very grateful & happy but then I think to myself.. wait, engineering?

I felt so stupid to even tell the interviewer that I wanna be an engineer( I haven't made up my mind yet that time) Engineering? u sure gurlllll......... nah. I'm not into engineering. That's boys stuffs.... and I also don't really know what engineers do, so I didn't really have the interest to be an engineer,( even though I told the teachers that I wanna be an engineer when I grow up) ( just because I had to answer)

*Tips before interview; Make sure you tell the interviewer what u really wanna be in the future( *face palm*

At the same time, I also got an offer letter from Kyuem. It was the hardest decision I had to make, so I kept thinking. If I choose to go to UTP, my education is all sponsored, my parents don't need to pay for my education.. If I choose KY, my parents have to use their money to pay for the college fees......... but then I thought to myself. WHAT DO I REALLY WANT. What are my goals? It was my dream to study abroad since I was a little girl. probably at the age of 11. I wanted to go to Cambridge. I want to go there. I wanna experience new things. I wanna take the challenge. I wanna do what I love to do.

If I choose UTP; I may a have a chance to study abroad, but only after degree. I have to bear with course that I don't want to take just for the sake of them paying my for my college fees. I don't get to study the things that I want to actually study.

Kyuem; I may have a chance to get into the best universities in the UK. I may have the surrounding that I wanted to be in, the comfort, and I get to choose my own preferred subjects. I'll get more challenges, having to compete with other students which are among the top students in Malaysia....

nevertheless, I always ask Allah to give me what is best for me.

Just to tell you that, I literally made up my mind the day I had to register. (Both UTP & kyuem made me register on 19 july and both of them are in Perak)

This post is already too long. I'll blabber more in my next post. Induction week

x, N.